life and such

man, you wake up in the morning and there's nothing like a decent cup of coffee,
outside that window a brilliant white pavement...no, it's not the fabled "blanket"
this snow is hard and frozen, unforgiving and crunchy
every car that passes by is covered in what we like to call "salt"
but you better...I know better...it stopped being actual salt like 20 yrs ago and maybe it took this long for everyone to catch on
this silly machine allows me to send information all the way across the globe in seconds, get a picture of anything you want, from new tires to what New Years looked like in Beijing 3 years ago. If I wanted to, and had the right credit report, I could use this machine to buy a new house, all the furniture and two dogs to go with it. I could rent a car to get there and have a hot meal waiting for me on the recently purchased kitchen table right at the moment I got there.
I could have the closets full of clothes and the heat and cable on...all by just pressing a few buttons, making a few clicks on the right web sites, all without even seeing the damn house first hand, talking to a single person or making sure, with my own two eyes that the meal was what I ordered...
Does that seem rational to anyone?
I'm not dissing the internet, of course...it's just a little too '1984' for me, you know?

I'm listening to an online radio software/website that has sort of an AI subroutine...so if I tell it I don't like a particular song, it goes back and readjusts itself so it doesn't play any more songs that sound like that....if the music wasn't so great, I think I would be more disturbed at the entire situation.

I've got a coupla pair a jeans that I like, a coupla pair that I don't...but if you've got a job, it's simply expected that one changes one's out-fit @ least every 2 dayz...after all "in america, anything less would be inexcusable"
"we are, after all, the wealthiest nation in the world"
I donno, I don't really buy it, maybe the biggest bully, or the one with the most malls...something a little less grand and lovely sounding....I am positive that the Spirits of ancient Babylon are totally thumbs up on the u.s.a.

me...not so much

I was chatting with someone the other day (again...exchanging info with someone I don't know...) and I was just like...it doesn't seem to be actually changing...queers are still 2nd class citizens, immigrants are more like 3rd class and regardless of ethnicity or social background, if you're disheveled and homeless looking (actually homeless...or even the appearance of such) you might as well be garbage in a back alley (and I've been there too)

It just doesn't seem to be changing...I guess it feels like womyn and people of African descent finally got the right to vote and everyone can still pretty much use the same public bathrooms (if you're quick...or not a transvestite)
But it's like nothings really been done after that...politicians are still this sort of metaphor for criminal, every president we've ever had has been a white/male/christian and that (especially in the last 50 yrs) the u.s. has been militant-socio-economic bully to the rest of the world.

Anyway, I'm not pissed off at anyone in particular, it seems like the only answer is to get the fuqu out...I donno, correct me if I'm wrong, I just feel like every day I spend here sees me walking around, wearing a nametag (to the rest of the world) that says "Hi, I'll be your oppressor today!"

Whatever. I'm just not interested in the lie of "voting"
Personally I know I (we) have absolutely no voice in the u.s. government.
And I know for a fact, I am not speaking merely subjectively.
There's nobody in Washington giving a damn my (our) ideas, they're just stomping their feet and shaking their golden cages and misrepresenting. And the real fuqued up thing is they get on the t.v. and shout about how the american people are listening and watching them (on CSPAN) when the fact is, they're getting yanked around by the corporate sponsors the same way we are...I donno...I'm not interested in the United Corporations of America...I'm just not interested, cause they're not interested in me (us).

Right now, I'm thinking about making some tea, and some dinner of some kind. I got a job starting this coming week, but I'll have to get another one...whatever...I'm more interested in just getting on with my pilgrimage than any of this noise...and it is freekin noizy...lemme tell you.

I met some interesting people on MySpace this week. I dig the networking part.
I'm thinking maybe getting all those people and groups together might make a change...but as you tell, I am not exactly positive about that.

Mostly, I'm gathering GLBT groups and profiles which seem to be spirituality oriented...that's cool. heh! I found this rap song about being Pagan...it's fly/stupid/dope/silly/mad/silly/phat/fresh...wurd...yo...

(well I think I'm pretty fly for a white guy)

yo....


I was reading a book by one Mr. Neil Gaiman and the main character said "the sky was impossibly blue" I liked that.

I saw some ridiculous film from the 80's last night...it had it's artsy points..but for the most part, as a metaphor for life in general, I totally disagreed

Life is wonderful. Magical. and Intangibly Beautiful, Life is ever growing outward...not corroding...Life moves like Water...anything else..is kind of unnatural...eh?