because

I left him because he had no right to do what he's done.

I stayed "with" him because he's dedicated to compassion for all sentient beings.

I left him because how he moves on that belief is euthanasia oriented.

I stayed because he believes in a Goddess. He worships and offers true puja.

I left him because I am not Shiva, not Odin hanging in a tree and he is not Kali, not Fenrir.

I stayed because I saw him help people.

I left because I realized was intentionally harming me...even when he wasn't around.

I hold him up because cultural beliefs are subjective.

To me we've always been theorists. Always philosophers, always thinkers, dealing in hypotheticals.

I left him because I realized exactly what's been going on. (and he wasn't just talking in hypotheticals)


I'm looking for an other, but not him.

So, here's a list...that will never be seen by anyone...apparently, of who I'm looking for;


ISO a 2nd that has no desire for a third

ISO a Goddess worshipper, preferably of Pagan or Shinto orientation

ISO a sub-guy that doesn't particularly care about sex ( can have fun but doesn't place any particular importance on it)

ISO a guy with a tattoo (or multiple tattoos)

ISO a poet, a dreamer, someone who practices benevolence towards all animate beings
(but doesn't view life as suffering)

ISO a guy who believes in Ancestor worship and Nature worship

ISO caucasian/short and round (but isn't requisite)
who isn't attached to anything in particular, practices meditation
not neccesarily goody-goody but practices Harming None.

ISO someone interested in visiting old temples in Asia and not interested in American "culture"

That about sums it up.

I left him.

That's all there is to say.